(Note: this post is Laura's journal entry from her devotional this morning...going forward this blog will include more entries from her and from Luke as well)
A bomb went off in my home last month. I call it the "C-bomb." It took Luke’s right leg. There is shrapnel in several parts of his body as well. We’re all reeling from the explosion. We are begging God to please remove the cancer from Luke’s body and to heal our boy. (James 5:14-16)
The past couple of days I have been asking God where is He in all this chaos and pain. Today He spoke to me through Psalm 18.
“I love you, O Lord, my strength.
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” (Psalm 18:1-2)
I feel like “the cords of the grave are coiled around Luke,” and “the snares of death are confronting him.” (Psalm 18:5) That is how it feels to face the cancer that has hold of Luke.
Does God hear me from his temple? (Psalm 18:6) Does the Lord rise up with smoke coming from his nostrils, as consuming fire, on clouds, in darkness, with rain, hail and bolts of lightening, to come fight for Luke’s life? (Psalm 18:7-12)
I pray that the Lord will shoot his arrows and scatter the tumors! I plead with God that he will send great bolts of lightening to rout the cancer in Luke’s body! (Psalm 18:14). I hope that He will bring Luke “out into a spacious place and rescue him!” (Psalm 18:19) I beg the Lord to please “keep my lamp burning; to turn my darkness into light” as I battle the despair in my heart! (Psalm 18:28) And then God reminds me:
“As for God, his way is perfect;
the word of the Lord is flawless.
He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.
For who is God besides the Lord?
And who is the Rock except our God?
It is God who arms me with stength
and makes my way perfect.
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights." (Psalm 18:30-33)
The Lord lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted is God, my Savior! (Psalm 18:46)