Sadness is a doorway to deeper faith. So is fear. Doubt too. These emotions can be painful and very powerful, powerful enough to awaken us to the reality that we are not in control. Pastor Craig Barnes has this to say about the sovereignty of God:
“God is often silent when we prefer that he speak and he interrupts us when we prefer that he stay silent. His ways are not our ways. To live with the sacred God of creation means that we conduct our lives with a God who does not explain himself to us. It means that we worship a God who is often mysterious - too mysterious to fit our formulas for better living. It means that God is not our best friend our secret lover or our good-luck charm. He is God."
It is through circumstances we don't prefer that my family is keenly aware of God's powerful presence. At times we see glimpses of God's unfolding plan, but overall we lack understanding. Still we achingly walk the path God has for us, for indeed He is God.
And we continue to pray, God heal our boy. (James 5:14-16)
James & Lu
(for Sam, Jay & Luke)